In 1997 I went on holiday to South Africa. One of the many places I visited was the aquarium in Capetown. They have this massive tank with sharks and other fish that goes over two stories. You can stand at the bottom in front of it and look up, or stand on a gallery on the upper level and look down to where people stand and have a good overview of the tank's front.
When I walked to the tunnel that slopes downwards around the tank and brings you out at the bottom again, part of it is open to the tank overhead and you can see the fish swimming above you. As it happened, a shark swam right on top of me as I looked up and suddenly, I was overcome with such sheer panic that I'm sure I broke the Olympic sprint record. I took off down that tunnel so fast until I came out at the bottom, that it surprised myself.
I've never felt particularly comfortable around sharks, usually on screen in documentaries, in movies or in pictures. But seeing one from beneath live like this was a first. I saw the teeth, so crooked and sharp, those small eyes that looked so evil to me and had never felt such terror in my life.
Most people are scared of sharks and they probably would not go swimming with them, especially the bigger ones. But the feeling of abject terror is a totally other level. I was never a terrified person. Afraid, yes, but up to that point in my life, I had never felt such panic either. And there is also a difference between having a mental health crisis type panic attack and being literally terrified into one.
Fast forward a few years to the early 2000s when I'd become an Usui Reiki master, and I remembered that part of my training was sending healing Reiki to past lives and karmic ties that negatively impact a person. Of course, I had to try this on myself first. I went into a deep meditation, letting the energies flow and asked why I was so terrified of sharks.
Then I had a vision. I found myself swimming in the ocean, no land inside, clinging to some broken pieces of wood. Instinctively, I knew I was a shipwrecked sailor, a small, wiry man, very thin, but used to hard work. The little flesh I had on me was all muscles. And then, right in front of me, a huge shark came up out of the water, jaws open, coming right at me, and then all went black.
In that moment, I knew, it had killed me by biting down on me, probably halving my body. But in the vision, I wasn't afraid, much less terrified, merely an observer not only to the outer experience, but observing the emotion of abject terror the sailor experienced in that moment.
I understood that the shark was merely hungry and merely looking for food and that I'd probably appeared to him, floating on the surface as I did, clinging to that driftwood, like its natural prey, a seal or similar animal. There was no evil, devilish intent. A shark isn't a monster, out to maim humanity whenever given the chance.
But that one moment of terror, probably no longer than a split second, that sailor experienced when the shark came up out of the water right in front of him and then devouring him, was something I subconsciously carried with me into this life and caused the reaction I had when I saw the mouth so clearly from standing below it.
I sent healing energies to the sailor-me and my present self after I came out of the vision. For good measure, I sent Reiki to the shark of the past and the shark I physically encountered in Capetown, too. Since then, I can look at sharks in pictures or on camera and not feel so terrified. I wouldn't go swimming with them, but I can see them as animals as opposed to evil, demonic monsters. I can walk underneath one swimming overhead in a tank as I did in Capetown without feeling abject terror and panic. I can read up on them and find it interesting to find out more, rather than avoiding it because it makes me so uncomfortable.
Exploring past lives can have many reasons. You can be merely curious what comes up, you might have an issue you can't find the root cause of in your current life and want to explore whether there is a karmic connection from a past life, or you may want to find out if there is a connection to another person in past lives and what quality those past relationships had.
Being led in such a regression session can be hugely beneficial, whatever your intent is. Things might come up that give you answers to another issue, too. You can go through scenes from various past lives or explore one or two more fully, depending on what you want to experience or find out about.
If you are curious to find out more and want to book a guided past life regression session with me where I guide you gently and safely in a meditative state through your past life experiences and watch a happy client's testimonial video, click here:
Tirza's Tarot Tuesday
Tirza's Tarot Tuesday is live and this week's reading features Seshat as Goddess of the week. She is the ancient Egyptian master architect and Goddess of divine geometry and the inventor of hieroglyphs. I also added two oracle cards and there was a powerful message!
Just in time for the Virgo New Moon today, the Venus Gate on the 5th and... Yeah, lots of things happening in the sky, so no wonder we're going on the prowl shamanic style!
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Goddess Quick Guide - Meretseger
This week's Goddess Quick Guide is that of Meretseger, an ancient Egyptian cobra deity.
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